we are the do-it-yourself family..

it was made clear to me that i will not be getting some help with mom..
when mom gets to the point that she's gonna need nursing 24/7, she is not getting
sent to a facility..
i'm supposed to take care of her to the end..  

now i'm really depressed..  

but yet dad was calling me a freeloader mooch..
i quit working so that i can keep an eye on her to keep her out of trouble
but yet..  i'm a freeloader..  damm..
becuz mom was bitching that i wasn't helping her enough..
i just love how mom has to play the victim all the time..

first she tells me i'm hovering too much and smothering her..
so i back way off to let her still have her independence, but then she's telling
everyone that i'm not helping her very much..

i can't win.. no matter what..  i'm the fuck up..
lose-lose always for me..

it's getting so damm frustrating that no matter what i do, it's never the right thing,
even tho i'm doing what i'm told to do..

FUCK!!!  families can be so...  AAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!

i'm going to my support group meeting in the morning..  i hope that they can seriously find me some therapy help becuz i'm gonna completely lose my shit, if i keep getting loaded with so much responsibility of helping the family..
and be told the only way out for me is when she dies..  yeah.. great.. fabulous..
(sarcasm inserted)