dreading when she speaks..

it's never a good thing when mom does speak in public..

she shows her condition to people when she speaks, but yet she doesn't hear herself..  i have to stand close by to be able to translate for her becuz the people she's trying to talk to look at me in confusion..

today was other such event..

she had been invited to the firm she invests her money with, to their 40th anniversary party, but they don't seem to have it in their files that she has dementia..
and so she's trying to have conversations with people and failing miserably but they are being good sports and trying to just humor her..
i was next to her, ready to step in and translate..

i've noticed that i'm able to lightly tap her under her arm and she understands that it means it's time to go..  i'm able to cut her conversations short this way instead of pulling on her arm..  
she gets angry when we tried to grab her arm to pull her away..  so i figured out to just lightly tap under her arm and she responds better and with no negative responses..

it's never fun when i have to be out in public with mom lately...
she has this "need" to tell everyone of her opinions even when they are not wanted..
but she doesn't know that she's not the center of everything..  she thinks that she is the goddamm universe and everyone needs to pay attention to her..
and you can't tell her otherwise nor can anyone else..

dementia seems more like a demonic possession except this one you can't get rid of with an exorcism..  dammit..