dark challenge..

i am not gonna be posting anymore of my finger pointing at certain races of people for my frustrations of dealing with state agencies..  (even tho whether it is known or not, they are a big reason why i am denied financial aid that is owed to me)..

it was pointed(pun intended) out to me that i was perpetuating the system of hate set up by THE SYSTEM to keep us turned against one another..

maybe.. maybe not..
what matters is that i was denied aid becuz i'm "not available to work due to my home situation which restricts and hinders my ability to work"..  or some such bullshit..

i was treated very badly by the case worker on the phone..  she kept pushing at me about how was i to work around my situation at home..  i couldn't give her any answers becuz I DIDN'T KNOW that's why i'm calling for help.. you bitch..

i'm debating whether or not to file a complaint against said case worker..
she was very rude, not helpful and nearly had me in tears on the phone becuz i wasn't giving her the answers she wanted to hear..  according to my sister, i didn't try hard enough and i gave up too easily..  well.. i'm sorry that i didn't work at a DES office for a few years, i don't like to lie about anything that i can't back up..   and i'm sorry i'm too white, a native born in this country and in serious need of aid to help my family..

the whole process of going to DES in the first place is very frustrating becuz nobody wants to talk to you in person or even on the phone until you fill out a bajillion questions online to start your file..
and then they take at least a couple of weeks before they even get back to you..
but of course it only takes a couple of days for them to bombard you with endless amounts of envelopes filled with forms for you to fill out that don't have enough room to write answers to their stupid questions..  and then you have to mail it back which takes 5-7 days to get anywhere and they want it in 3 days..  
luckily for me, i can use my parents' business fax machine to send it..  so they get it in minutes..  bitches..

and then when you do get a phone interview, you are treated like an idiot who's just too lazy to work and begging for money.. which they have no intention of giving you unless you meet certain requirements..
#1  if you are white and not mexican or black,  or have any kids, you are not eligible..
(i'm sorry to say it but it is true, and it's funny that i get racial profiled and denied becuz i am white and american)
those people get aid so fast it's scary..  and IT IS TRUE.. goddammit..

and then, they have to bombard you with several letters from different departments saying that you don't qualify..  it reminds me of OFFICE SPACE, when Peter Gibbons received 8 phone calls from 8 different bosses, telling him that he fucked up on his reports..   yeah i can relate..

so my next interview will be like this..

i am available to work, i will tie my mother out in the backyard with the dog and leave a big bowl of food and water for her..  i will leave my 5 yr old nephew in a large dog kennel with a bucket for a toilet and a large bowl of food and water..  and i will take my lunch break to go and check up on them..

i am pregnant with an alien baby and have 6 more at home becuz the midi-chlorians keep producing spawn in my womb becuz there is no father..

i wonder what kind of response i will get with that..  i wonder if it's ever been used..??

am i being hateful?  you bet..  will i succeed in my pursuit of my quest??  we just have to wait and see..