sometimes doing the right thing doesn't pay off..

becuz of my dad, me and my sister are always doing the right thing when nobody else will do what needs to be done, and it always kicks us in the face, everyone else benefits while we pay a price.. and it always makes me wonder why the hell i'm doing the right thing when i get shafted for it..

oh sure it makes us look like the better people but then we also look like idiots becuz we end up paying(and i don't mean financially well sometimes) the price for everyone else to get what they want..

like what happened to her..  she was supposed to just go visit sacramento for a couple of weeks and then she was supposed to be brought back home..  she was promised that she and her little boy would be brought home..
and now it's not convenient for her to be brought home, it will add too many miles onto the car..  WTF??!!  are you serious??!!  

unfortunately i don't have a vehicle to go pick her up and then a flight was booked for them to fly into vegas..  like in another 2 weeks becuz it's one of those bargain rates that needs 2 weeks leeway...
Sis is soo pissed off that she's basically being kept there against her will now and her ex and his mom don't seem to care..

so i think this time, she's gonna cut them out completely from her life..
she's pissed off that they keep manipulating her to do what they want and they don't consider her feelings or wants..

i of course couldn't be more happier that she's finally cutting them out of her life, they are nothing but super selfish people who don't give a fuck about anybody but themselves..  and little C doesn't need to learn those kinds of habits, to treat people like they are nothing but puppets..  it's not right..

and of course, little C is happy to be in sacramento visiting his daddy and grandma, he's oblivious to what's really happening..  but then he's 4..  it's ok for his to be ignorant for now..

we were taught to always do the right thing..  but somehow we weren't taught about how to make it pay off for us..
we always end up looking like the biggest idiots or we get so fucked over..

i'm sick of doing the right thing and made to look like an idiot..

unless the memo was about being the bigger asshole than the assholes who put you in that position..  yeah, i gotta learn how to do that..  
that's what will make it pay off..  being the bigger asshole..

but is that the right thing to do?  at this point, i almost don't give a fuck..