another night, another dream..

it hurts me that i can't be completely happy now in love..

i have to keep it on the down low and only be happy with midnight rendezvous in my room, which has been pretty wonderful..
i'm a secret affair..

i don't know if i like that..

it is exciting but also makes me a bit sad..

i'm making the best of it by just enjoying my nightly pleasures..
it's been so long that it feels so unbelieveable.. and i pretty much ravaged him
last night, just wanting more and more and more of him..
he was wiped out by me, he's been dragging ass all day, he told me..
but he is thoroughly happy about it..

i teased the hell out of him last night for not showing up before the end of
Halloween night, like he had promised..
it drove him crazy with desire and made me so hot when he finally got
to have me..
so far our rendezvous has been so amazing, i hope it can last..

i think i'll give him a break for a little while.. he needs to rest up and recupe..
i knew i was gonna be a beast in bed, but i didn't realize how much of a beast..
it surprized me so much, when he was telling me that i was such a sexual vixen
and that i had been holding out on him years ago, he never knew that i could
be like this and he likes it..

it just feels a bit high school, that i have to keep this from my parents and
everyone else..
my sister knows and she's happy that i'm finally "having fun"..

it's for the best that we don't announce our getting back together..
since we really can't be together, except for our midnight rendezvous..