lost again..

once again, Drew is leaving my life..

he's now engaged to someone else, which really broke my heart..

and i was pretty hurt and angry and sad for a few weeks.. i couldn't bear to read

any posts he put on his FB page about him and his fiancee', it just hurt me too much

to read about how happy they are and the plans they're making, and she's going to move

in with him.. and yada yada blah blah..

and then.. granted it's not necessarily a crime, but he got rid of his FB page..

just one more way for me not to be able to contact him.. i panicked but he answered

a text message to his cellphone, that he was still around..

and i tried calling him, but he didn't answer his phone or respond to my voicemail, and i tried texting him again and got no response..

he's once again disappearing from my life.. and i have to just let him go..

he might come back again..

when his engagement is not fulfilled..

(he has a track record of getting engaged but not marrying the women, i haven't heard why)

why should i try to hang on to someone who keeps forgetting me and then a few years down the road, he remembers me..??

he really is a good guy, i wouldn't love someone who wasn't a good person..

he just drifts away..

maybe the next time i'm given the opportunity to be with him, i need to jump on him..

and forget doing the right thing..