i finally got word!!

I JUST HEARD FROM DREW!!!

he dropped off the face of the earth back in March and i've been leaving messages and emails for him to call me or contact me in some way to let me know that he's ok..

and he finally did call me!

he's in connecticut at a rehab facility.. he got into trouble again and was arrested, again and this time his sister paid for him to go to a facility in connecticut..
he's been there for almost 3 months and doing very well..
it was so good to hear from him, i almost cried finally knowing that he was ok.. but i'm at work and can't make such a scene..

i'm so in love with this man, it hurts not to be with him..
it seems like things keep getting in the way of us being together and i've been waiting for over 10yrs now..

i am weird like that.. when i love someone, it is forever..
yes i'm very weird like that.. and a bit mushy romantic..
damm those vampire romances.. *sigh*

i wonder if this is a record of some type to be in love with someone you can't be with.. i've known him for 16 years..
i wonder if i'm trying to rush into something becuz i feel so empty without and he cares about me too..

i've been thinking about backing off with my feelings.. i told him how i've felt about him all this time.. and i told him that if he didn't feel the same way that it was ok.. i just didn't want him not to know, in case something should happen to me..

he said that the new program recommends not to be involved with anyone during the first year.. including any sexual contact, which everytime i get on the phone with him i have the overwhelming urge to jump his bones..
so i really have to watch myself and refrain from any sexual type talk..

i've never slept with him but i want to sooo badly.. i'm not sure if it's becuz i haven't slept with him or becuz he does feel about me too..

i'm so in love with him, even when i was just holding him i felt so complete.. and i feel that connection that i've been looking for, for a long time now..