why does love have to hurt so much?

Drew, my long time, long distance friend, whom i've been in love with since i first met him over 10 + years ago.. is still too far away from me to even try to pursue something more than just a friendship..

and plus now he's on The Program for recovering alcoholics court ordered to take AA meetings 6 times a week and anger management too.. he just got his driver's license back but i'm sure he's still limited to local driving only for quite a while, he's on probation..

we've had such a long time playful friendship.. one that borders on sexual tensions becuz we haven't slept together and i know we want to, badly.. but circumstances keep us from taking that final plunge.. and now that he's on The Program, it's recommended that he don't pursue any type of relationships for at least a year..

oh the torture of not being able to have the one you want..
the story of my life..
i always have to give them up for higher purposes, noble reasons..
mostly i give them up becuz they don't want me..

but this time.. i know the feelings are mutual.. it's just that we are so far apart and i don't want to push anything he's not ready for.. and i don't know if i'm ready either..
maybe this wanting is a sign that i am.. i don't know..