Wandering alone, yeah, At night, vision’s so blurry...

it's been a long time i know..  life stuff just got in the way.. 
changes, always changes, that i have to do, to make things easier for everyone at home..

it's going on 2 years that i haven't been to a job, helping take care of Mom..  i've been stepping up a lot more with Mom.. she's gotten more wobbly and falling quite a bit..  so far, she hasn't broken anything..  

Dad's been getting really frustrated with Mom becuz she won't eat much..  she sleeps a lot and probably doesn't feel hungry..  but when i sit to feed her, she cooperates a bit more with me..  or i've been cheating and feeding her yogurt and a Boost drink..  sometimes i don't have the patience for her to not accept food, so i give her Boost drink..  it's better than nothing..  i have offered to feed her for Dad..  he's been happy that i take over that chore..  but he hovers and gets angry when she doesn't open her mouth right away..  i force him to leave the room so that i can feed her in peace..  Dad is always surprized when i get her to eat her meals..  becuz i have the patience to get her attention to eat..  sometimes, she's just not interested in eating.. but i always have that Boost ready to go and she drinks that, willingly, becuz it's chocolate..  she likes chocolate..

We had picked up Sis' fiance, Steve from the UK, at the Vegas Airport in May..  they were married Memorial weekend, more steps towards his visa US citizenship..  he has to fly back to UK in July..  so he can do more paperwork on his visa..  and then he will be able to stay permanently here in the US..  this will take months..

Mom recently had a fall and took Dad down with her..  he hit his head and his back against a wall while Mom landed in the kitchen on the floor..  Dad was the one who was bleeding and she just seemed shaken..  so i tended to his bleeding.. which wasn't bad..  he scraped some skin off his head and some scabs broke open on his arm..    i bandaged him up and told him to take some aspirin becuz he will have a headache later and his arm was bruised up from hitting a metal standing shelves...  the stubborn man won't go to the ER..  so i'm hoping he will be ok..  and Mom seems alright.. but without xrays..  we won't know for sure.. and she's not able to cooperate for xrays.. becuz she's so hunched over and can't move her limbs much and doesn't understand commands..

this is getting harder..  but i have to keep going.. and keep Dad going..  
hopefully Dad will consider more help..  i'm hoping.. but i'm not holding my breath on it..