More recent updates..
i graduated with my Associates Degree in July, i got a job at a clinic, 40 miles away from home, the commute sucks and i have to get up so early to start my day.. 5am.. be on the road by 6am to make it to work before 7:30am.. SUCKS! the office is horrible, run by a manager who doesn't manage anything and doesn't help solve problems.. a few long timers are basically running the office as long as there isn't any real cat fighting.. it's oppressive and i feel so doubtful of what i do now, becuz i get daily notes of things i screw up.. and no notes of any encouragement.. one person was fired for a made up reason, i'm not sure if wrongful firing would be recognized here, becuz it's at will employment.. a short time carpool buddy was run off to a job locally, she was bullied becuz she was young and in school to be an MA, the long time MAs were jealous of that and bullied the hell out of her.. no HR doesn't help with office bullying, Arizona doesn't recognize office bullying as an issue, so nothing was done.. except now we have 2 less people and that heaps more duties onto everyone..
a raise is coming to everyone on the next check, coming out next week but i feel it's not enough to put up with the crap that is going on in the office and it's not enough for me to commute 80 miles a day..
i have my Career Services adviser looking for other openings for me, in my local area only.. no more commutes..
Becuz i am full time employed and out of town, Sis had to step up and take over watching Mom..
Mom doesn't like her at all.. it's what she did to me the first few years, as you know.. She had to stop doing full time work and go down to part time pay, which is not much and she's not happy..
i still have to work for my Dad, even tho i'm dog tired after working all day.. he doesn't seem to care how tired my job makes me and now he's not paying me at all for the work i do, except every now and then that i need to ask for money..
we're podcasting on sundays now.. or trying to, me and Matt are in depression mode and don't really wanna do anything, but we do make recordings of our own segments and he puts them together, so at least it's something that is made for podcast..
i'm not be a whiner, i'm venting about how much i hate my job.. it's overwhelming and i just want to scream at people to leave me alone so i can do my work, but i end up swallowing my anger and just listen and do as i'm told, at least try to.. i can't just up and quit yet..
things are ok but i'm in depression mode and fighting my way thru it, even tho it's kicking my ass..
i had a plan to workout on the weekends since i have paid for gym membership, i've only been twice in 6 months.. i just don't wanna do anything on the weekends.. but i need to get up and go!! becuz i'm paying for nothing.. goddammit..
life isn't too bad.. the paycheck is a lot nicer than pizza.. the job is just so draining, and makes you feel so tired and brain dead at the end of the day.. i hate that feeling.. and i'm even on valerian root to keep me from having a meltdown, but it doesn't seem to be enough..
i need to get up and do workout at the gym.. get up bitch and do those workouts on the weekend, goddammit!
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