Depression, i fucking hate it..
it makes me feel so tired and i just wanna give up on everything and stay in my room and never come out again..
i had gotten 2 tattoos a couple of months apart, and the endorphins were working
fine, but it only lasted about 3 months.. i'm not able to give blood til next year..
my tricks for avoiding depression, are not lasting that long anymore..
something has got to change for me or else, i won't be able to last much longer..
and why is it, that every time i ask for help, people do different things but yet they don't really help me?
i'm part of the alzheimer/dementia support group and they don't really help me, i used to be a faithful loyal member showing up at every meeting for months and then
the depression hit me hard, dealing with mom's condition..
and every time i reached out for help, i get ignored or left hanging..
i'm so tired of being left hanging in the wind, and i'm getting more and more tired of fighting to hang on.. i need help and but yet everyone else who asks for help expect me to help but i don't get the same consideration..? WTF? and why?
of course i'm strong.. i have to be.. my parents depend on me and so do my sister and her child.. everyone always depends on me to be the rock, but rocks eventually crumble too from too much pressure for too long..
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