couldn't take it..

i just couldn't continue in that job at the hotel..

housekeeping got me injured on the 3rd day and so
 i was moved to laundry..  which i lasted only a week and a half..

it was way too hot in there, no A/C..
my feet were in way too much pain to be standing on 
such hard concrete floors for over 8 hours a day..

i realized just how out-of-shape i am..  
and my health would have gotten worse..
i figured it's time to quit a job when i'm crying 
when i go to work, and i'm crying as soon as 
i come home from work..
and the pain, would not stop..

everybody was very understanding that i just couldn't
keep working in those horrible conditions..
the heat, plus all the spiders all over the place..
it reminded me of ARACHNEPHOBIA movie, the giant 
spiderwebs all over the place with lots and 
lots of spiders in them..
so it was also a health/safety issue, which i'm sure that 
OSHA would love to go see that kind of building for violations
galore..

i'm mostly recovered but now i have to find something else..

i was offered my old job back at domino's, becuz 
the bitch GM was replaced by another co-worker..
i might have to take it if i can't find anything else..  
i liked the daily tips..  but my car needs the new axles 
put on before i can do that job again..
i'm gonna talk to Paul again about working on that for me..

oh yeah..
Paul and i are talking again..
he got a new cellphone with a new number..
i even bravely called his home number to talk to him,
but his old lady gf wouldn't let me and she never told him
of the messages i left on their voicemail..
but..  he even took such great effort to get 
my cell number again,
by coming over when she was out of town..
and we mostly just made out in my bedroom 
like a couple of
horny teenagers..  i really enjoyed it, and 
it's great to be able
to just to kiss and not have sex..
even tho, his rubbing on me was getting me 
soo excitedable..
that i almost just tore his jeans off and jumped on him..
he told me that he wanted to wait til another time becuz
it will be so much better the next time..
and it always is..

i'm to the point that i don't care if she finds out about us..
i am feeling so hateful mean, that i would enjoy the look
on her face, if she walked in while we were 
having sex on her couch..  LOL!!
i don't think that even then, she would kick him out..
i know for sure, that when i get pregnant, 
that might be the end..

i have been feeling meaner and more unlike my
usual, play by the rules self..  

a change that i'm sure that couldn't be stopped..