intruder once more..

erik is back once again, to try to be a dad and to help Sis and Little Chris move into a new place away from Mom..

they're all gonna live together, for all i know,

she's been planning to get back together with him too..

i sort of get why she won't completely cut erik from her life..

he's chris' dad and sharing a child is a tie that can't be

severed even when it's for the best..

supposedly he's improved and taking care of his condition better and saved quite a bit of money to be used to move into a place that's away from my parents..

which means she's leaving me again..

it's is for little Chris' best interest since gramma hates his guts..

but now with erik here, everything has changed once again..

i feel left out of everything..

i feel like i've lost connection with Sis, i'm a third wheel again..

i feel totally disconnected from Sis and Chris..

and Chris has been a little turd to me, not really acknowledging me when i'm trying to talk to him or want to give him some hugs..

it hurts when he's mean to me like that, but i guess i understand why he's like that..

he's got his family back and i'm not really needed anymore, except when he wants something and he knows that i can get it..

like when he wanted a bag of his favorite fritos chips..

i now have to get a job becuz Sis lost her job and her last paycheck is almost gone and she needs to buy Chris some school suppies,

he's been going to kinder camp, a mini summer school session at his new school...

so far he's been enjoying going to school, he's meeting other kids and learning how to count and write..

i'm so proud of how he's doing in school..

but now..

erik is back and taking them away from me, again..

it's for the best since Mom's condition is making her hateful to little Chris and we're afraid that she might harm him in her demented state..

(she nearly choked him when i grabbed her off of him),

it's a picture i can never forget and Mom doesn't think that she's done anything wrong..

she was always an abusive parent, i'm surprized that none of us were severely harmed or killed with her always hitting us, beating us, or throwing things at us..

Mom's condition is getting worse, she doesn't know that physically hurting people is wrong..

it's been so stressful keeping her away from little Chris,

we were teaching him how to be nice to gramma, but now

his very presence upsets her..

and that's not how a gramma should be..

grammas are supposed to unconditionally love their grandkids and wanna love on them and spoil them..

but now little Chris' gramma, she just wants to get rid of him..

and she doesn't realize that her attitude toward him is hurting my sister.

it's like she doesn't care.. 

of course, it's her condition to be blamed..

well her and dad will be surpized when Sis and Little Chris are not living here anymore..

so here i am crying in the darkness for the soon to be loss of my little family..

and i'll be left on my own to deal with Mom..