caught and busted..

not one of my prouder moments.. but we got caught doing a quick kiss by his gf..

her eyes were almost bugged out of their sockets and she was soo pissed..

P told me to leave so that he could try to calm her down..

so what happened?

i'm now banned from going over to their place(of course) and that i'm not to see or talk to him ever again.. (that part i'm not accepting)

he texted me that he was doing a fake call to me to where he was telling me that he could not ever see or talk to me again.. she wanted to listen to this call so i played along, even tho to hear him say it brought tears to my eyes and made me feel like complete shit..

he texted me a little while later so let me know that we were not done and that we will meet up again some time.. and he was asking me if i was ok..

of course i'm not ok.. i've not been in this situation before and yet i really have nobody to blame but myself..

i told him that i'm not letting him go either and that we just had to bide our time until the situation cools down..

i can't help not wanting to let these feelings of love go..

he destroyed my heart to where i've been carrying a cold stone in my chest for the last 15 yrs.. and now he's brought it back to life..

our connection is stronger than ever now, not to boast, that the sex is so mindblowing and amazing..

and we are good together..
i have the love that i've been missing all these years.. i'm not letting it go or giving it up...

at least we had one last sexcapade before the shit hit.. and it was so worth the trouble.. yes it was that incredible!!

it seems that each time we're together.. the sex is better and better.. and we have fun with it..

but for now.. we have to keep our distance..

and i feel like shit becuz now i'm paying the price for my selfishness..

how come other people can get away with this and i can't??