they just don't understand..

nobody really seems to understand how i'm feeling about wanting to leave here..

they think that things are going good for me becuz i have 2 jobs.. what they don't understand is that 2 minimum wage jobs just doesn't really pay off.. it may pay the bills but you still have to keep busting your ass, and there isn't much left over in the bank to build up the savings..

i'm always the stepping stone that get other people their success.. while they forget about me and leave me in the mud..

and now it seems that becuz i said i had been considering leaving.. now the offers are coming in to try and keep me here.. and they're still not good enough of a wage offer..

NO! i've had enough of waiting for people to do the right thing for me.. or at least do for me when i do for them..
NO MORE! i'm not giving them a chance to screw me over once again with promises of higher pay..

of course i've been told that i'll be missed.. of course they'll miss me, becuz they know that i'm reliable, dependable and can get the job done the best.. but is that gonna get me a higher pay? of course not!

i came here to learn something.. and i think i've learned it..
i came to find out about myself.. and i've found out that i can do more than i think i can..

i'm feeling pretty insulted that at a radio job where i do more than just board op, i'm not offered something more.. and then i look like an idiot when i ask for it..

"D will do what we need.. we can always depend on D.. D will do the job with no problems.."

well.. D is tired of always doing for others and not getting a return of favor.. or recognition.. or rewards.. or bonuses.. or even a well deserved pay raise..

that's it people.. you've had your chances and you've blown them all..