i should have known better..

i should have known better than to have gotten my hopes up that justice would be served..

shithead is NOT going to prison.. he got the felony weapons charge dropped down to a c class felony.. which has very little jail time.. becuz the gun wasn't loaded.. the ammo was in his pocket..
his public defender will most likely get him off on probation again.. and he might be freed again to roam the streets
wreaking his havoc on everyone.. but for now he is in county jail til the middle of october..

and so i'm not really worried.. becuz my dreams of shihead coming after me always ended at his death by my hands.. i just don't want him to force my hand.. becuz i will defend myself..

i don't wanna hurt my sister who still has feelings for him inspite of all that he's done..
i don't tell her anymore about my feelings about him.. becuz i don't want her to not talk to me about him if she wants..
even tho i am sick of hearing about him.. i'm sick of hearing of all his escalating crimes and his violent behavior.. in prison he would have been beaten to a pulp.. and probably had all that fight beat out of him.. but it won't happen now..

when my sister updates me on what he's doing.. at least that gives me info that i can use to protect myself.. so in a way.. it does me good to hear about what he's doing..

and the police.. are fucking useless..
it's pointless to ever call them about anything.. they don't come in a timely manner..
they are not problem solvers.. to stop anything from going further.. or continuing..
but they have been good at killing people lately...
there have been several incidents over the last year where they have shot and killed their suspects..
and recently even did a rodney king on a violent homeless guy.. beating him to a bloody pulp and leaving him in a jail cell to die.. instead of taking him to the hospital..
but they never do this to people who deserve to die.. like shithead..
and when the cops show up.. shithead turns into a pussy cat.. never pushing his luck in getting shot and killed.. goddammit..!

i will be very happy to move away from here.. becuz there will be no more shithead for me to have to deal with..
i will be several states away.. and near my sister to help protect her.. and the baby..