sometimes.. the jealous monster pokes at me..

lately i've been noticing people getting married.. or having babies..
it seems to be a booming thing now..

and i feel a bit jealous.. mostly becuz i'm alone with no prospects..
but then of course.. it is my fault.. i've built such a tower around myself.. nobody is getting close to me..

old hurts and wounds keep me from being part of that life..
but then.. it keeps me from being hurt and destroyed again..

so a fair enough trade.. i guess..

but it still doesn't stop me from wanting..