feeling cheated..

i feel that i did all this work backwards..

i should have asked sylvia in the beginning what schools were on the "authorized funding" lists.. and then made my choices from there..

instead of the last 8 months of getting my hopes up and then smacked down hard becuz they weren't on the required lists..

i shouldn't have been told to do research into possible schools.. if i wasn't gonna get into them..
the last 8 months seem like such a waste to me.. with me doing all the searching and sylvia seeming to not do any work for me.. and putting me off.. and on hold.. and waiting for her to come back from her breaks..

and i called the last school to apologize for wasting their time..

i should be apologized to.. for having my time wasted.. and for being put on the fucking emotional roller coaster..