I'M GONNA RANT BECUZ IT'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!

#1, i luv my sister and i want her to be happy!

i'm glad that she's happy and i'm not wanting to ruin anything for her becuz that would just be selfish of me..

her f!@#k buddy has turned into a boyfriend now..  
he's a big dumb bohunk redneck idiot, he runs hot and cold and he doesn't think clearly about most things, he decides things mostly from his emotions and not his brain, the one on his shoulders.. 

i've been so angry that she's now all floppy in love with this idiot and i'm refusing to be sucked into the dumb redneck thing, they're trying to set me up with his dad..  
ewww..  no thank you..

i've been so angry and i feel like my insides are boiling becuz i know that R will drop her as soon as his "ex wife"(he's still married to her, they are separated), says that she wants him back..  and i know he's still in love with his wife becuz she has the same name as my sister(a big sign to me, but a clue that Sis just can't see)..

so i've decided to take the higher road about this.. i'm taking calming herbs to keep me from spouting off my real thoughts..  

5HTP is what i'm taking now and it keeps me feeling calm and a bit numb..

R right now isn't really thinking of his son, who is still with his ex, his ex has embraced a druggie party lifestyle that she's dragging their 8 yr old boy along and R hasn't done anything to get that boy out of there, he's infatuated with my sister and happy that he's getting sex that his brains are out the window too..

am i the only one who's really thinking with their real brain?  geezus..
the big dumb redneck thing isn't my thing anymore, i had married a potato head from idaho who was similar and then it ended quickly enough becuz i demanded that the bills need to be paid and he didn't want to pay..  so that ended my infatuation with that..

and the funny part is that i have to medicate becuz nobody wants to hear my true thoughts..  ok now, let the rainbows and unicorns and glitter spread through out the land, while i just sit and watch or go find my own thing to keep busy..

thank you, my rant is done..