it's finally sinking in..

i think i finally believe it now.. even tho i really had hoped she would be done with him..

my sister is never gonna leave her deadbeat piece of shit medicated psycho boyfriend.. even tho he's not good for her or Kyuss..

he won't be able to work, he's gonna be probably forever on disability for his mental illness, which the checks are being garnished for child support for his first son to another woman whom he's still married to..

i know he's Kyuss's father.. i'm not denying that.. as much as i hate it, but there is no denying it..
but he can't be a proper father or provider of the family.. my sister is doing all of the supporting, which is giving him a freebie ticket to be a continuous deadbeat.. all tho he is now watching Kyuss while she's away at work.. which still fills me with dread..
so far, he's a good enough sitter..

but this is all not my call.. and i have to just shut my mouth about my feelings about him..
last night's phone call finally sunk into my head.. she's never gonna leave him..

personally i can't tell the difference between an asshole or an asshole who's mentally ill..
they both do the same fucked up things.. out of spite and anger, and just the pure joy of terrorizing people becuz they can..

now he's medicated and "back to normal" more or less.. i still can't get past the hell he put us thru not that long ago.. especially towards me..
mentally ill or not, it was the worst hell i've ever been thru and don't want to have happen again..

i do hope that she's happy being stuck with this shithead, who's not welcome anywhere becuz of what he's done, while he was flipped out of his skull..
he's tying her down, holding her back and still not able to provide for his second son, other than babysitter services..

she's never gonna move back here.. she now has a pretty good job that is paying her good enough for her to start sending me money to help me with my rough situation..
i'm almost considering taking her up on her offer in may or so to move in with them so that i could be auntie nanny to Kyuss..
as much as i still hate shithead.. i might need to do that to save me from these rough times..

i'm really not wanting to.. but it's on the list of possible options.. unfortunately..