why do we have to pay..?

my sister asked me just the other day..

"why are we the ones who has to pay for other people's damage?"

it seems that whenever we get dumped.. the other person goes a bit nutty and does as much damage as possible that we have to clean up..
like financially.. legally.. even emotionally.. and they get to walk away without any responsibility...

how the hell does that happen??

like the recent breakup with my sister.. but it's still kinda going on..
even tho he is in jail.. he still calls the house like everything is fine..
we don't answer the phone.. and soon we're gonna be changing our number.. so that he can't call anymore..
but how does this guy think that all the shit he's done in the last month..
all the horrible things he's said.. all the financial damage he's done..
how does this fucking asshole think that things are fine??
i don't care if he is mentally ill.. all the things he's done is what a complete raging asshole would do..
his illness turned him into an asshole.. or released the raging asshole within.. there's no excusing it..
he knew he had an illness.. and never once said anything to us about it..
he never stayed on his meds that would have kept it in check.. even tho he had been court ordered a few years ago to do so.. but they never once checked up on him..
he never warned us that he was about to crack...
an asshole keeps secrets.. especially a big one like that.. that effects all of our lives.. not just his.. stupid fucker..

and i can sort of understand why my sister would feel sorry for him..
they had been together for 3 years.. you can't quite forget that time..
but the bad outweighs the good.. all those good memories have been flushed down the drain by his actions.. it's all tainted now..
there's nothing to really hold onto..

my sister has to leave town becuz there is no escaping him in town..
he would and will keep coming to the house.. becuz he has no where else to go..
but he hasn't been here in a month.. he's been in jail on and off for the last month.. he has no job to help pay the bills.. and now i've taken over the bills and rent..
he has no place here.. and the landlady doesn't want him here.. since he creeped her out when he visited her one early morning.. like 7 am..

i'm sorry if i am being a horrible uncaring bitch..
i probably should feel sorry for the mentally ill.. but i don't right now...
he's using his illness as a get out of responsibility free card.. and that is bullshit..
he claims that we never let him be a man..
his version of being a man.. is to be free of responsibilities and to act like a child and do whatever he wants..
the world doesn't work that way.. and it doesn't work with us..
everyone has to pay their share of the bills.. if we are sharing an apartment..
and if he thinks he can move right back in.. without a job.. and without him being on meds.. he's seriously mistaken.. becuz i'm in charge now..
he's not getting in.. ever.. again.. i can never or will ever trust him again..
he's nothing but shit now.. a petty criminal with a taste for that type of life now..

i'm only here for another six months or so.. and then i'm gone..

i still hope he dies.. he's hurt my sister.. my blood.. and he's even gone after me..
he's lucky that i haven't torn him limb from limb and fed him to a pig farm..

he's even destroyed all his ties with his family.. but doesn't understand why they won't talk to him..
and we made sure to warn his soon to be ex wife that he had plans to kidnap his kid.. she will make sure that he will never see his boy again..
she lives with her father.. who owns a shotgun.. and if shithead steps onto that property.. that dad will shoot to kill..

but of course.. i won't feel bad about his death.. not one little bit..
he's earned it..